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The Time has Come For You to Lead-Joshua 1:2

There are many times I have experienced the fear, dread, and anxiety that often intercepts a particular task or assignment I know is important.

Often, I have felt the heavy, choking personal weight and loneliness of defeat even before having even begun.

Have you ever wrestled with such insecurities and darkness?

How silly …to *think* you can not do something you actually can.

I absolutely love and value how the Lord speaks encouraging words to Joshua concerning these feelings.

The Lord reminds Joshua of his assignment….the thing Joshua is supposed to do AND tells him to do it with confidence, encouraging him in his spirit, soul, and body with repeated words of assurance. Be Strong and brave …as I was with your forefathers, I will be with you. Don’t be afraid because I (the Lord) will be with you everywhere you go. I will not leave. I will not fail you.

In 2002, after engaging in a powerful workbook and devotional by John Bevere entitled Driven by Eternity, I realized I was going to stand before the creator and give an account of my life including the gifts, talents, and dreams he had placed within me.

Was I doing anything about these awesome things, or was I turning my back on them? Has I dropped them to the ground because of fear and uncertainty? My excuse bag was full.

Stopping to reflect on my individual responsibility to follow thru with a higher demand and eternal calling, I realized I need to make some inner personal changes, which I will go into further detail later.

A very clear voice spoke to me about my assignment drawing it from the depths of my spirit.

In 1993, God gave me a vision of a mountain. I climbed half way up the mountain which was easy and comfortable for the most part. I found some level ground and a whole bunch of people who had decided camp out. An entire community seemed to have been established half way up the mountain. …lots of fun and rest.

However, as comfortable and welcoming as that camp was. I knew I was to go to the top and as I looked at everyone who had climbed half way it seemed no one was interested in coming with me. I knew I had to climb alone.

What has God told you to do?

What do you believe God has promised you?

If you haven’t already started, begin your plans for accomplishment immediately.

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the time has come for you to lead these people, the Israelites, across the Jordan River into the land I am giving them
the time has come for you to lead these people, the Israelites, across the Jordan River into the land I am giving them


  1. Oscar Wilde said this about memory, “Memory…is the diary we all carry about with us.”
  2. My memory serves me to share with you My Story and Testimony. So can yours.
  3. Some memories may be best left private, especially if there is an element of shame involved. There is wisdom is keeping some things hidden.
  4. So without getting too philosophical here, it might be best to let the scriptures speak:
  5. It is shameful even to mention what the impure do in secret. Ephesians 5:12
  6. So needless to say, I really believe …like most ppl, as I got older and bolder, I explored, experimented and developed some unhealthy habits that ppl just don’t talk too much about.
  7. I will say this: Have you ever noticed, one wrong choice seems to make the next wrong choice a little more welcome?
  8. Ya know, as I think about it….I have one specific memory from the age of 5 or 6 that seemed to thread its way into my adolescence and young adulthood.
  9. When I was about 6 my father left for an unaccompanied tour to Okinawa, Japan. This means my mother was left to ‘run things’ (including me) for a year.
  10. The tour or duty was extended, so at the age of 7, we joined my dad for his extended 3 year tour in Okinawa Japan.
  11. I have so many memories of living in Japan from the ages of 6-9 (1977-1980). I will share only a few:
  12. The Muppet Movie during school, Superman at the theatre, having to wear the ‘dunce cap’ at school, and actually running away from home for a couple of hours.
  13. But the one thing that has greatly impacted my life happened at the age of 7.
  14. Our family was on a church function for the weekend. I think it was called a retreat.
  15. We stayed at this place with other families in the middle of a bunch of sugarcane fields.
  16. For some reason, I ended up going for a walk…by myself, on one of the dusty dirt roads that ran through the sugarcane fields.
  17. I have the strangest memory of hearing a clear voice speak to me from nature. This voice was clear and I could hear it in the deepest part of my body.
  18. This voice didn’t use words as we know them. It was as if the voice turned on a switch for me to know something fully, clearly and instantly.
  19. If I could give this voice one word is would be: missionary
  20. Do you know the meaning of the word?


  1. As of June 5, 2016 I am 44 years Old.
  2. I am married to a wonderful wife named Sherry.  Opposites do attract.
  3. I have 4 kids. 2 Boys. 2 Girls.
  4. One of the girls is a dog. Literally. A LabraDoodle.
  5. We currently live in Winter Park FL.
  6. We love it. We work from Home. With God’s help we are designing our own life.
  7. Working from home is not always easy. It is not always fun.
  8. But working from home is always rewarding. Why? I’ll tell you later.
  9. I was born in Anderson SC. Anyone other Lee Illagan and my extended family of aunts, uncles and cousins born in SC?
  10. To be honest with you I don’t remember too much of my early childhood.
  11. A few photos prompt clues to some memories, you know….
  12. Our family moved to Charleston SC because my father went to Dental School there and then he joined the Navy.
  13. We lived in an apartment for a while, then they bought a brand new little three bedroom house.
  14. Here a few of my early memories. Hiding under the table. Hiding behind the TV. Putting gum in my neighbor’s hair. Her name was Mandi
  15. Getting hit with a blow dryer by Mandi. Losing my thumbnail because I dropped a log on it. It grew back.
  16. Asking why chocolate bars melted when left in the hot car.
  17. Being able to almost see over the counter at Burger King.
  18. Getting pinched because of my excitement for almost being able to see over the counter.
  19. Discovering that my breath made ‘smoke’ when it was colder outside….AND….
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